52 Fridays…What are You Afraid Of?

Another wonderful Friday has rolled around and it’s time to talk 52 Fridays again. So when you’ve found a few moments, treat yourself to a refreshing beverage, grab that journal and cozy in!

Are you fearful? If so, what is it that you fear? Do you feal like it’s logical? Rational? Can you pinpoint when this fear began? Or do you feel like it’s been with you forever? When do you notice it most profoundly? Does this fear even make sense to you?

As you may have noticed, I’ve been doing my darnedest to kick fear’s butt. But just yesterday I had an insightful reiki session that brought up past fear that is still holding me back. I’ve done a TON of crazy, thrill-seeker stuff in the past several years, so it’s not that kind of fear.

I will need to dive deeper, sit with it a while to determine what I’m still holding back…what’s holding me back. And when I’ve allowed those feels to pour out, I will step forth in faith with the other piece that spoke loudly in yesterday’s session and forgive myself.

Faith is an extraordianry tool I’m continuously working on implementing every which way in my life. So here’s the idea to consider on this 52 Fridays journaling journey of you…

Do you feel ready to break that fear into smaller pieces, to slowly move toward letting faith work away at them? It can be a scary process, I know! But in facing that fear, you will be amazed at what you find on the other side of it. One more way to put our Best Foot Forward.

Finding My Joy

Friends, those of you who’ve met me more recently would be surprised to know, it wasn’t long ago I was in a rather dark place. I was overweight, overscheduled, overwhelmed. I fell for the perfectionist trap in so many aspects of my life. When I often fell short, I dug myself deeper into a sense of failure. Despair.

I made it my mission to be in control of situations in an attempt to make everyone else happy. It was an exhausting existence. One which consumed me with worry…suffocating every chance for personal fulfillment. See, in living in this manner, I unknowingly left myself out of the equation time and again. If you had asked me what my hopes and dreams were, I couldn’t give you an answer because I was running the program, going through motions that never made sense but seemed expected. It was just what the women in my family had done for generations. In trying to measure up to certain standards, I found myself constantly falling short.

How did I get to this place? I had the love of family and friends…the support was always right there for the asking. But I was missing the integral puzzle piece to my wholeness…ME.

I’d become so caught up in the frantic pace of pleasing others, attempting to meet everyone else’s needs, I forgot myself. Ignored me. It has taken me 4 1/2 years to shift my focus from looking away to looking within. At first it felt terribly self-centered, but wasn’t that the point? Don’t we all need to meet our own needs first in order to be of any help to others? YES!

I admit, this was a terrifying concept at first, because putting myself at the top of my list of priorities negated everything I thought I knew. Yup, this was a scary place. But, little by little, I’ve chipped away at the senseless expectations in my head, jumped clear from my comfort zone, again and again, to create a profound sculpture of a healthier, happier me.

I’m no longer smothered by worry or expectation. I’m trying new things almost daily to point me toward my life purpose. I’m not only able to dream again, I’m living those dreams! And the result? Contentment. Exhilaration. Pure JOY! These are great feelings to take into the new year.

Friends, set aside some quiet time this week to focus on YOU…one more way to put your Best Foot Forward